About

Oh good! You’ve made it! I was just wondering when you would arrive. Please – grab a cup of tea or coffee (or any other drink that strikes your fancy), pull up a seat, and stay awhile. I have many a tale to tell, starting with this one…

Once upon a time, a moment of profound clarity sparked the second most turbulent year of my life. What exactly was that moment, you may wonder? Well, I was participating in a meditation during Robert Holden‘s Coaching Happiness seminar in May 2013, when suddenly, I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I MUST get off the ‘life as survival’ merry-go-round and start living from my heart. I knew that it was time. In that moment, I made myself a promise to do everything it would take to live my joy. I had absolutely NO idea what I was in for…..

As soon as I made that declaration, the Universe began conspiring to fulfill my dreams, but in ways I never could have imagined. I thought it was going to be a joy ride, full of laughter and peals of delight! Instead, it’s been a rough road, fraught with sorrow, tears and pain. I’ve had more upheaval than I thought possible. I’ve been more lost and confused, questioning my purpose and who I am, than at any other point in my life. And yet a tiny voice within me has whispered, “Don’t worry. It is all perfect. You’re exactly where you’re supposed to be. Trust the process.” But I often question even that. I’m not the most trusting person in the world.

Two major insights have fueled this blog. The first is recognizing that I have been hopelessly waiting for life to happen. For. My. Entire. Life. I lived with the belief that some day, when all the stars lined up just right, it would magically unfold and I would know. Know what? I don’t know. But I would know. I counted on it. And then I realized the truth, that this is NOT how life works. In that instant, my world came crashing in around me. I felt a profound sense of loss and regret, thinking all those years were utterly and completely wasted. Talk about a jagged pill!

What followed next was the proverbial V-8 moment – the AHA! I realized that life is never going to happen to me, that I happen to life. It has been patiently waiting for me all along! The ins and outs of the daily grind are life. Today. THIS is life. It doesn’t get better than this.

This doesn’t mean the circumstances of my life won’t shift in the future, they are guaranteed to. It just means that I’m not waiting for the magic to happen any longer because it is here now. I look around and take in all the wonderful circumstances of my life today. I have a roof over my head, food in my belly, a car that gets me where I want to go, enough money to pay my bills and enjoy the small things, and most importantly, a family and friends who love me. I’m still adjusting to this paradigm shift, but each day gets a little bit easier.

Thanks to all the shitty circumstances that have directed my life for the past year, I am now in a perfect position to follow my joy, or the Big Happy, as Robert Holden calls it. And that is what I wanted all along.

What you’ll find here is my written and photographic account of all this and more. I would love to hear your own thoughts and experiences. What AHA’s have you had about your own life?

The story is just beginning…

 

15 thoughts on “About

  1. I recognize all of this, so much… A bit sad it takes several years to realize and still great that we did, I think a lot of people don’t. I lived my life very structured and planned for everything in my 20s. Married a man, got two wonderful children. Started to question our life and wanted change. I had to make that change, like you mentioned. Ended up in a divorce. Now I will soon turn 40, my children grow up faster than I would like them to and again I’m sort of stuck in some waiting for the “big thing”. That will not happen. I have been offered a great opportunity in my life. It is not an easy one but really something I want to do, I am going to and feel scared. But I am old enough to know I have to follow my heart. Might give some hard times but I will not regret it later.

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    • I used to be baffled at the concept of this so called mid-life crisis. But I have to say, now that I’m in it, I get it! Of course. Duh! I think we spend the first half of our lives thinking we have more time to do what we want, then wake up one day saying “Oh shit! Where DID the time go? How will I ever achieve my hopes and dreams now?” and make a mad dash to the end. Maybe not. It just seems that way to me a little bit. At least if we don’t heed the lessons of our youth. I hope not to fall into that trap and don’t believe I will.

      Following your heart may not be easy (oh, lordy, do I ever know this!), but I am a firm believer that it is not possible to go wrong by doing so, either. I hope I will hear more on what your new adventure is…I shall go take a visit to your blog to find out more! 🙂

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      • Well, you seem to have “got it”, you have figured out what life is about, and I have too. My new adventure is about leaving a place I worked in for 16 years and now go back to school to get a degree. Better late than ever, right…? I have realized, the better work and higher salary thing is not my thing. Been there, done that. And I have had a lot of stomach ache and headache. So I start all over from scratch sort of. We have had some cut down at my company and that “helped” me get on my way.

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        • I’m not in school, but I’m completely going a different direction for my career – building my own business, actually! I was in my company for 14 years and gave up about half my salary to go the direction I am now. Funny that we both have these parallels. I’m wishing you all the best and can’t wait to see what your adventures bring! It’s always nice to know we’re not alone.

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          • Interesting to hear that😊 my next step are including starting my own business, but first I have to improve some of my theoretical skills… Are in some way also losing a lit salary here. But it is time now! I wish you all the best and to reach success with your plans! I follow with great interests:)

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  2. I enjoyed your blog and have nominated you for the Liebster Award…
    These are the rules:
    The Liebster Award is awarded to bloggers with under 200 followers to try to promote their blog a little and also bring together a community of bloggers. The rules of the competition are as follows:
    The nominated user must provide a link bank to the person who nominated them.
    Provide 11 facts about yourself.
    Answer 11 questions set by the person who nominated you.
    Choose 11 more people and ask them 11 questions.

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  3. I think it’s great. I revised posts many times and take out some unnecessary words each time. I don’t think this is too long… Even if it is, it flows well.

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    • I think it’s a never ending endeavor, really. I’m sure I’ll continue to revise and tweak…probably constantly. hehe. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and give your input. 🙂

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      • I revise incessantly–pretty much EVERY time (Whether it’s the first or the hundredth) I reread something I’ve written, I find something to tweak.

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